Procrastination is damaging to your personal growth. I know, for I have felt the effects of procrastination in many facets of my life. Although I am a very active person who is never bored, I do procrastinate on many tasks that I should be getting done to improve my standings economically, socially, romantically and creatively.
Why is that? What habits have I formed? What have I learned? How do I feel about where I am? What do I notice about others, and how does that affect me?
How can I, someone who is athletically driven and has tons of energy, practice complacency in select aspects of my life? To speak honestly, here are the areas in which I have noticed procrastination in my own life: the development of a true adult male's life, the securing of an apartment/residence of my own, cleanliness, meal preparation, amenity possession, a higher standard of living, career stability/formulation, confidence in my own abilities at work, the taking of proper vacations, having a core group of like-minded healthy friendships that further drive me.
My procrastination in each of these areas has severely pinned down my development as a true man. My confidence in myself has been the most consistent casualty. How can I run a half marathon without eating or drinking anything, but not think of a business idea to make money on? I can deprive myself, overcome and succeed, yet all in the scope of athletics. The fact that the creative entrepreneurial spark is not there at times is frustrating to a man with my drive. I am a determined individual. I want to succeed. I wouldn't have attempted to build the content of this site if I wasn't. So, what has been holding me back? What has kept me in a cycle of self-defeat and self-doubt and procrastination to not allow me to further my life's development?
Fear. In a word, fear. Fear of what? Failure. Impact of my failure upon those who believe in me. That is what freezes me, keeping me inactive in matters that generate: money, abundance, wealth, positivity, fortune.
Hello, Youtube music videos and the rest of the internet, you are a major distraction. Sometimes they serve as motivation, but most times they do not. They are my escape. Each time I veg out to listening to music, I realize all of the productive things I could be doing: searching for a new career opportunity, reading nonfiction, drawing artwork, building a business, writing more content for this site, learning how to build a website myself to start a viable online business, design clothing styles/set new trends. Essentially, making life happen for myself, instead of sitting in my parents' den like a 13 year old. That was 20 years ago, and computers didn't exist in the capacity that they do now. I need to be capitalizing on every moment of every day where my eyes are open. Seriously. That is how true leaders operate, and I consider myself a true leader. I lead by example, and my example must be that of excellence at all hours.
What else holds me back? Inaction. A belief that I'll have another chance, another time. The self-inflicted opinion that I am not ready for the kind of responsibility I must take in my own life to succeed. The uncertainty of not knowing where the next paycheck will come from. The self-doubt of your own creative spark and business acumen/follow-through/cutthroat edge. The only blame lies with my own self for all of this. Many with much less than I have risen to peaks I dare yet ascend to. Why do I hesitate from climbing them? For fear of the fall? As a fighter, the first thing to dissipate when you are in combat is the fear of getting hit in the face. The fear gets largely replaced by something else: the fear of judgment by others. It isn't so much the fear of the fall that I worry about, it is the opinion of others after I have fallen and have survived that prevents the action from initiating. Is this rational? No. Not at all. At times I feel I owe others to build myself up even more than I owe myself. I don't know why that is the case. Maybe it doesn't matter what the case is. Perhaps it is that whatever gets me to take the first steps up the mountain is the best case and cause.
My dates seem to be on their grind harder than me. It is a very surreal feeling to come into contact with people who are on their hustle 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. Even for someone like myself, who considers himself "on" for most of the day in some way, shape or form, there are others with whom I have met that completely blow me out of the water, economically. Lately, it seems that each woman I go out on a date with appears to be grinding (trying and succeeding, putting in the work) in their business like they were huggin the block (dealing drugs). That is the only comparison I have to how they act at this point because it is near identical. Whether it be traveling to sites doing research, doing the creative work themselves, working on side projects, networking, negotiating for money at every turn in their day to day life and treating relationships with another male as secondary to their business, the women I have come into contact with lately have caused me to re-evaluate my approach to my own doings. That has stirred up many emotions within myself, beginning with initial anger at being ignored and glossed over for the quest for money, leading to envy of them being so focused on making it in this world alone, to a realization that the grind will never sleep for those people, and finally, to the conclusion that I have to keep up with this way of life or be swept to the wayside of business. I felt pain for myself, as I had thought that you are either born with the hustler's gene, or you're not. I forgot that anything can be learned by a capable human. Anything. And I assure you that I am one of those capable human beings. I am in the midst of that transformation as I type this. As painful as my lessons have been, I do see the point of them. It is only now that I have begun to treat those hustlers' spirits as my competition that I will rise above. With hard lessons under my belt, I am seeing the hustle in a different way, similar to the way the women I've been dating see it. To never have an off moment. To always be thinking, thinking, thinking of ways to make a dollar....or ten.....or one hundred.....or one thousand. This dynamic is different than how I see men who are about their business operate. This may deal with a creativity factor. Right now, I am in the midst of learning.
Are there mental blockages to me desiring to achieve and meet my full potential? Yes. Those blockages are self-imposed, causing me to sputter in place while simply keeping the status quo. That is no way to live this life. How can I grow a business from scratch when there are snakes at every turn? Do I know enough about the evils and cutthroat nature of the business world to survive in it, let alone strive and earn real money? Can I manage the uncertainty of this ever-changing world and rise above the other prey and become the predator? The mental blockage of being a son, a youth with still so very much to learn of the world, is what seems to affect me the most. Wanting to be better than your father, yet in a comparison of age, you have already seemed to fall behind. Do I possess the abilities to deal with the ever-changing concepts in the world today to succeed economically? I feel that I am capable of being that man who can. To do so, I feel that I must give up vices. No business can succeed while being wrought with vices. The objective is to live cleanly and learn each day.
What are the solutions to my questions and blockages? Doing things. I must constantly be on the go, like so many of the women that I have encountered over the past year. They had turned chaos into order in their lives. I can do the same. What things? I must create designs for a t-shirt/sweater/hoodie style trend that I have come up with, and launch it. I must learn how to create/build an app for an idea that I had recently. I must workout continuously, lifting weights, doing pushups, abs and running. Since my last fight in March 2013, I have felt like a shell of an athlete. My energy needs to be consumed by something, or else I feel it to be wasted. I don't know how to avoid the snakes. It seems to be that I just must simply experience it, taking the risks to get my rewards, while learning as I go. I must learn negotiating skills in order to navigate those murky waters. To go from prey to predator is a tough task. It can be done. I have seen transformations before. I have also seen prey remain prey, and wallow and sigh their lives away, accepting their fate. I once read the following quote in The Godfather Returns, spoken by the character Tom Hagen, and it had always resonated with me. He states, "If you live in the wolf's den long enough, you learn to howl." The same can be applied to business/entrepreneurship. In terms of the comparison to my father, I am not him and he is not I. My path is much different than his, so our timelines will look different. I can only control my own success, and I cannot limit myself. I am of a different nature, and thankfully at 33 feel still very young. I have the rest of my life to create and succeed, and also fail. So long as the failure never impedes my stepping forward, my life will be victorious. I must keep setting and achieving goals, as well as monitoring them and editing them along the way.
I feel that I cannot procrastinate anymore. My goals must be achieved, as there is no more time to waste for me. I have 7 years until I am 40, so I must make each moment I can count for something. Economically, half of 2014 is over, and I am stagnant. By January 2015, that will not be the case. I will create and generate income for myself. I am tired of living a complacent existence. I will own my own business by year end, have a website of my own up and running by my own hand by year's end. Fitness-wise, I will get back to being ripped in around 3 weeks time. I have promised myself to adopt a diet filled with green leafy vegetables and healthy drinks. I am also going to refrain from alcohol, as that is of no use to me at this stage. I want all facets of my life running at peak caliber to fully capitalize on this existence I am living.
Procrastination is the act or habit of putting off or delaying, especially something requiring immediate attention. I am creating different habits for myself. No putting off. No delaying. Actions speak louder than words, and I am not a wordsmith. Be on the watch. It is time to build.
Why is that? What habits have I formed? What have I learned? How do I feel about where I am? What do I notice about others, and how does that affect me?
How can I, someone who is athletically driven and has tons of energy, practice complacency in select aspects of my life? To speak honestly, here are the areas in which I have noticed procrastination in my own life: the development of a true adult male's life, the securing of an apartment/residence of my own, cleanliness, meal preparation, amenity possession, a higher standard of living, career stability/formulation, confidence in my own abilities at work, the taking of proper vacations, having a core group of like-minded healthy friendships that further drive me.
My procrastination in each of these areas has severely pinned down my development as a true man. My confidence in myself has been the most consistent casualty. How can I run a half marathon without eating or drinking anything, but not think of a business idea to make money on? I can deprive myself, overcome and succeed, yet all in the scope of athletics. The fact that the creative entrepreneurial spark is not there at times is frustrating to a man with my drive. I am a determined individual. I want to succeed. I wouldn't have attempted to build the content of this site if I wasn't. So, what has been holding me back? What has kept me in a cycle of self-defeat and self-doubt and procrastination to not allow me to further my life's development?
Fear. In a word, fear. Fear of what? Failure. Impact of my failure upon those who believe in me. That is what freezes me, keeping me inactive in matters that generate: money, abundance, wealth, positivity, fortune.
Hello, Youtube music videos and the rest of the internet, you are a major distraction. Sometimes they serve as motivation, but most times they do not. They are my escape. Each time I veg out to listening to music, I realize all of the productive things I could be doing: searching for a new career opportunity, reading nonfiction, drawing artwork, building a business, writing more content for this site, learning how to build a website myself to start a viable online business, design clothing styles/set new trends. Essentially, making life happen for myself, instead of sitting in my parents' den like a 13 year old. That was 20 years ago, and computers didn't exist in the capacity that they do now. I need to be capitalizing on every moment of every day where my eyes are open. Seriously. That is how true leaders operate, and I consider myself a true leader. I lead by example, and my example must be that of excellence at all hours.
What else holds me back? Inaction. A belief that I'll have another chance, another time. The self-inflicted opinion that I am not ready for the kind of responsibility I must take in my own life to succeed. The uncertainty of not knowing where the next paycheck will come from. The self-doubt of your own creative spark and business acumen/follow-through/cutthroat edge. The only blame lies with my own self for all of this. Many with much less than I have risen to peaks I dare yet ascend to. Why do I hesitate from climbing them? For fear of the fall? As a fighter, the first thing to dissipate when you are in combat is the fear of getting hit in the face. The fear gets largely replaced by something else: the fear of judgment by others. It isn't so much the fear of the fall that I worry about, it is the opinion of others after I have fallen and have survived that prevents the action from initiating. Is this rational? No. Not at all. At times I feel I owe others to build myself up even more than I owe myself. I don't know why that is the case. Maybe it doesn't matter what the case is. Perhaps it is that whatever gets me to take the first steps up the mountain is the best case and cause.
My dates seem to be on their grind harder than me. It is a very surreal feeling to come into contact with people who are on their hustle 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. Even for someone like myself, who considers himself "on" for most of the day in some way, shape or form, there are others with whom I have met that completely blow me out of the water, economically. Lately, it seems that each woman I go out on a date with appears to be grinding (trying and succeeding, putting in the work) in their business like they were huggin the block (dealing drugs). That is the only comparison I have to how they act at this point because it is near identical. Whether it be traveling to sites doing research, doing the creative work themselves, working on side projects, networking, negotiating for money at every turn in their day to day life and treating relationships with another male as secondary to their business, the women I have come into contact with lately have caused me to re-evaluate my approach to my own doings. That has stirred up many emotions within myself, beginning with initial anger at being ignored and glossed over for the quest for money, leading to envy of them being so focused on making it in this world alone, to a realization that the grind will never sleep for those people, and finally, to the conclusion that I have to keep up with this way of life or be swept to the wayside of business. I felt pain for myself, as I had thought that you are either born with the hustler's gene, or you're not. I forgot that anything can be learned by a capable human. Anything. And I assure you that I am one of those capable human beings. I am in the midst of that transformation as I type this. As painful as my lessons have been, I do see the point of them. It is only now that I have begun to treat those hustlers' spirits as my competition that I will rise above. With hard lessons under my belt, I am seeing the hustle in a different way, similar to the way the women I've been dating see it. To never have an off moment. To always be thinking, thinking, thinking of ways to make a dollar....or ten.....or one hundred.....or one thousand. This dynamic is different than how I see men who are about their business operate. This may deal with a creativity factor. Right now, I am in the midst of learning.
Are there mental blockages to me desiring to achieve and meet my full potential? Yes. Those blockages are self-imposed, causing me to sputter in place while simply keeping the status quo. That is no way to live this life. How can I grow a business from scratch when there are snakes at every turn? Do I know enough about the evils and cutthroat nature of the business world to survive in it, let alone strive and earn real money? Can I manage the uncertainty of this ever-changing world and rise above the other prey and become the predator? The mental blockage of being a son, a youth with still so very much to learn of the world, is what seems to affect me the most. Wanting to be better than your father, yet in a comparison of age, you have already seemed to fall behind. Do I possess the abilities to deal with the ever-changing concepts in the world today to succeed economically? I feel that I am capable of being that man who can. To do so, I feel that I must give up vices. No business can succeed while being wrought with vices. The objective is to live cleanly and learn each day.
What are the solutions to my questions and blockages? Doing things. I must constantly be on the go, like so many of the women that I have encountered over the past year. They had turned chaos into order in their lives. I can do the same. What things? I must create designs for a t-shirt/sweater/hoodie style trend that I have come up with, and launch it. I must learn how to create/build an app for an idea that I had recently. I must workout continuously, lifting weights, doing pushups, abs and running. Since my last fight in March 2013, I have felt like a shell of an athlete. My energy needs to be consumed by something, or else I feel it to be wasted. I don't know how to avoid the snakes. It seems to be that I just must simply experience it, taking the risks to get my rewards, while learning as I go. I must learn negotiating skills in order to navigate those murky waters. To go from prey to predator is a tough task. It can be done. I have seen transformations before. I have also seen prey remain prey, and wallow and sigh their lives away, accepting their fate. I once read the following quote in The Godfather Returns, spoken by the character Tom Hagen, and it had always resonated with me. He states, "If you live in the wolf's den long enough, you learn to howl." The same can be applied to business/entrepreneurship. In terms of the comparison to my father, I am not him and he is not I. My path is much different than his, so our timelines will look different. I can only control my own success, and I cannot limit myself. I am of a different nature, and thankfully at 33 feel still very young. I have the rest of my life to create and succeed, and also fail. So long as the failure never impedes my stepping forward, my life will be victorious. I must keep setting and achieving goals, as well as monitoring them and editing them along the way.
I feel that I cannot procrastinate anymore. My goals must be achieved, as there is no more time to waste for me. I have 7 years until I am 40, so I must make each moment I can count for something. Economically, half of 2014 is over, and I am stagnant. By January 2015, that will not be the case. I will create and generate income for myself. I am tired of living a complacent existence. I will own my own business by year end, have a website of my own up and running by my own hand by year's end. Fitness-wise, I will get back to being ripped in around 3 weeks time. I have promised myself to adopt a diet filled with green leafy vegetables and healthy drinks. I am also going to refrain from alcohol, as that is of no use to me at this stage. I want all facets of my life running at peak caliber to fully capitalize on this existence I am living.
Procrastination is the act or habit of putting off or delaying, especially something requiring immediate attention. I am creating different habits for myself. No putting off. No delaying. Actions speak louder than words, and I am not a wordsmith. Be on the watch. It is time to build.