There's way too much happening in the world today to focus on any one thing. I can't believe how nutso the 2000's and 2010's have been. It's like the world said to all of us 18-20 year old's in 1999 "Welcome to adulthood...." then dropped a dot com bubble on us. Then a couple of years later, we all know what happened. From that point on, chaos. How organized do you think that chaos has been? That's the real question. I for one think it's super organized, to a degree most can't imagine. I don't really even know what topic to focus on to write about, either. I could turn down 1000 paths at this point in time, May 2016. Perhaps that is by design. Make things so complex and fast moving that we can't focus anymore and really think about the world around us, to the point where we are running around either like chicken with their heads cut off, or zombies glued to cell phone screens. Nature of the freaking beast, nowadays. Do you remember back in 1999, when cell phones were just something maybe one of your parents' had in case of an emergency? Look at how far we've traveled.......or been coerced to travel. I wish there was one person in the modern era who decided back then to just not participate in the whole information age advancements. Some 18 year old that just said no, and decided to say "no thanks" to the internet era. Haha, could that even be functionally possible outside of the 3rd and 4th Worlds? In the Western World, that would be absolutely zany. It would also make for a good short story or fiction novel idea. Hmmm, maybe I should expand this story. Help me think out a name for the main stubborn character. I am going to randomly look at my computer screen and pick out 2 letters, and then we'll create a name off of that. I am going to go to google, and type in a word that pops into my head: synonym. In looking at the first hit in Google News, I clicked on an article about Ethiopia. I closed my eyes, and am now taking the first two letters my eyes focused on: OT, as in the word 'others'. Should we poke fun at OJ and name the character Orenthal? Nah. He doesn't deserve that tribute. Man, all I can think of so far is Oscar, Oliver and Owen. I could go Greek, and put Odysseus, but that seems too ridiculous. I'm going to go with Owen. I want this character to be male. Can you imagine if a female decided not to take part in technological advances, missing the entirety of the social media/selfie culture? I think a male refusal to participate could make more sense. Although honestly, this is purely fiction. I don't believe that this could happen in reality. So Owen T. I got it. Didn't take TOO much time in reality for a good name to come to mind. About 20-30 seconds, and we have it. Turkington. Owen Turkington. The one person who said no to the continuation of the information age in 1999. And the struggle begins from there. Or does he even notice? Maybe I have myself a cool topic and path to venture down now.
I look at these people walking around in my world, and I realize that they have no clue about what is going down in the world today, or the stage in history that they are in. That seems kind of arrogant to say, and I am not an arrogant person. But I am an honest person, and I devour information fervently. So, I’d like to think I would know if someone is on point in their way of thinking about the world, or is tired of listening and just wants to play in their own way. Too many victims though just want to play in their own way, when they should be studying up. If that is your view, you are living a shortsighted existence in this life, and not achieving your full potential. Why must you do that to yourself? You and I are living in a system designed to keep us enslaved and never reach our full potential, subjected to a bombardment of lies and negative influences that cram our senses throughout any given day. On the flip side of that coin, there are many positive influences that occur all around us as well, only those occurrences may be harder/more gradual to notice and appreciate. Think of things as plant growth, nature, sunlight, stars, other peoples’ positive energy, self-thought and religion (certain aspects). Negative influences can be music (certain kinds), sports (being a fan of teams, aka diehard fandom), sex/p o r n, drugs, alcohol, religion (certain aspects) and overall negative thinking. What should I focus on in this entry? I started out thinking of talking about the negative influences in our lives. I won’t solely blame the negative influences though for blinding you or I at certain points in our lives from truth. I will put the blame on you, I and the system. The system can be accused of promoting it all, and you and I can be accused of being weak-minded enough for falling prey to the subliminal attack.
Something is happening right now that is changing the course of human history in the modern era. Can you see it? It is beyond race, religion, status, economies, technologies, politics, geopolitics, freedoms and rights, or lack thereof. This something is a combination of everything in the reality that we find ourselves in. If you can’t see it yet, you really must begin to open your eyes to it. Religion, business, politics, military, technology, science, weather, astronomy, esotericism, genetics, eugenics, social programming, propaganda and the capabilities of the mind are all a part of one end goal: control. I don’t know how to help people besides what I am currently doing. And I seem like the crazy one. People, I guess, can accept truth up until a certain point. After that threshold has been reached, I get the pushback. Why do people have to push back? The whole goal of your life is to learn while here. If I told you that the Rothschild family was at the top of the pyramid, I would be lying to you and me. I know it goes much deeper, the power structure, than the red shield. Would that matter to a college kid or middle manager at a company? Who knows. I don’t like compartmentalizing the level of depth I’d need to go to learn the real truth. There is no separation: just one component that ties into some degree of another component. No matter how strong the link between the two is, just the fact that a link exists is enough. It should be cause for further study, for you cannot refute outright what still remains to be found out. Right now I am reading about levitation, for there seem to be a lot of relations to yogic traditions from Tibet and India, based on Buddhist and Brahman practices. Who am I to refute something like that just yet? What can we do now to counteract the poison we've been figuratively fed (and most likely, literally fed) over the past century
I don't know what I'm doing. I don't know how things are going to play out in the world. And you know what? Neither do you. So, we've got that going for ourselves! I can, however, supply you with some educated guesses on what I think is going to happen in the near future. Some of the things may be dependent upon one another. Others may just be an idea that I think will take off. But, in no particular order, these are my thoughts. Raw thoughts......no organization. Straight from my cranium to this computer screen.
I think the global recession is here. And I don't need to be an economist to believe that. I honestly think that I have made more progress on a conceptual level in terms of economic knowledge since I graduated college with an econ degree in 2003 from independent study than I would have made if I had somehow become an actual paid economist for a firm. I'm glad I went to college for economics, as it taught me a lot......but thinking back, I came to the realization that it taught me a lot of dogmatic concepts that, in the real world of the 21st century, do not hold true at all in this ever-changing environment. AT ALL. You have an induced recession in 2008, a faked recovery based on central bank stimulus intervention, and the stage is set now for an even greater recession (in reality, a depression) on top of immense geopolitical conflict. Markets are manipulated millisecondly, so what makes you think that you can turn a profit? Going further, what makes you think that you can turn a profit morally or ethically? Say I buy gold, physical gold, as a "hedge" against a equity/debt market downturn. I buy that gold, and keep it in a safe place because it is a "store of value." Why is it a store of value? What is its purpose besides a store of value? Seriously. I don't know. And that frustrates me. Because a core rupt market says it's a store of value? Because maybe if society falls apart I can trade slithers of gold for ears of corn based on the opposite party's need or greed for the shiny object? So, I have my gold here for a really, deluge-y rainy day.....then I remember that the gold's most likely been mined on the backs of slave labor. That, really, presents a moral conundrum, right? I make a relatively wise investment for the future, but miss the human aspect of it all. Damn. The same can be said about walking in grass......that if I did so, I am most likely killing ants and other flies/bugs. Well damn again. It just all gets me thinking. But that's too philosophical right now....I gotta stick to the theme. So gold is just an option of how to prepare myself. But, prepare myself for what exactly? A police state? Well, what would even spark a police state to take shape? Economic depression, such as hyperinflation, deflation, massive unemployment , a shutdown of the entire economy, massive capital controls, elimination of cash and shutdown of any benefits could all be factors. Perhaps the popping of multiple bubbles (real estate, equities, debt (gov bond, corp bond, student loans, auto loans), leading to a massive credit crunch for a national populace that is wholly unprepared to deal with something like that by design. And by design, I mean being told flat out lies for the entirety of this century (to quantify just a safe time-frame so all can relate). If you can admit that much to yourself, you're on a good path towards figuring things out. Outside attack could also spark a (further) police state......but the way my mind functions, our biggest threat in that realm remains the people we've "elected" to govern us, and the people that control them. It's not too complex. Things are made complex to confuse us......to have us think we need someone else to manage this for us, to manage that. Once your money is withheld from you via capital controls, deposit haircuts or whatever, you're probably going to be pissed. I know I will be. But know this. Your money will be used to fund bnk defaults, and the resolution of a bnk's debt. You'll be dead last on that list of kreditors. That's just a part of it. Think of your inability to spend money now. What if they digitize cash in full? Do you know how confusing that will be for people over 50 years old? That's going to be rough. I think that bnks will consolidate further, but be centrally operated as one group mind through a blockchain technology. I have to do more research on this, but that is where I am leaning in my view of things. Economic downturn reduces your cash first, then cash becomes a banned substance, then coins, then you are only allowed to use the blockchain (technology behind bitcoin) to pay for things. In between there, there's going to be a whole "revolution", and not in the good sense. With the ghun cntrl stuff in the news, you can tell where this is headed. For the crafty, the blaq market will still exist I am sure. And that is another factor highly glossed over in today's news. The amount of funds flowing through the blaq market today is near incalculable. And also, not focused on. It would be very wise to read up on the blaq market. It is a truly wild world out there, right in your own backyard. Can you deal with Artificial Intelligence? Robotics? The idea of machines learning? I really hate to say it, but this is the path we are headed towards. It's a weird time, to say the least. Not just with the elimination of jobs, but as technology grows, the fable known as privacy will all but be eviscerated. Good times. Next cause would be racial strife. I just.....man. It's 2016. People have arguably been coming to the shores of the americas since 9,000 B.C. And we still focus on the race issue. It sucks as just a person to listen to racial talk. This isn't the point to living this life. It's a negative focus. We'd all do the world a wonderful service if we were just nice to each other. No need for racial tension in a society that claims to be more technologically advanced than ever before in human history. I don't think that's the case, but we have to be on the intelligence level where race shouldn't really be as big a deal as it is in terms of fear and violence these days. Is that too rad ical a thought? If it is, that's a shame, and I shake my head in disbelief. Terr or also could play a big role in the further development of a police state. I see it occurring now, depending on the day. While you are worried about fanaticals halfway across the world, people in Michigan get sick due to the poisoning of the water supply with lead. I don't know about you, but the fact that I could be waxing poetic to someone about the danger of I S I S to us as Americans, while I sip a refreshing glass of water that could possibly have lead or some other toxin in there, is pretty ridiculous to me. So very blatant, too, is the message. They don't care about you (your leaders). They've fabricated enemies for you, and fed off of your fear, all while disabling your chance for a good future (economic bubbles) and/or harming you (poison food/water) with an end objective of further privatization and more control over your ever dwindling options. Why don't people see this? Natural disaster can play a gigantic part in the wealth of nations, and their future potential. Without trying to get too biblical, what if another deluge happened? What if meteors showered down on parts of the globe from space? What if tsunamis turned to earthquakes which caused volcanos to erupt and bring about a true change in climate beyond anything car bon tax ers thought up? That cannot be ruled out as a possibility. All of this time spent worrying about sales and status and position in society would seem pretty worthless, staring at a real possibility of a catastrophe striking the earth in this era. I think about the ancients, watching and learning from the actual stars. Then I think about the current era, where we are mesmerized by the stars of TV and film. Somebody turn this tv off, quick. I think a lot of bad may happen in years to come that will shock our current world. I do, however, think that good can come from those who see the things happening now that just seem off to them. Guess it's time to really start getting some ideas down for solutions. In the Wizard of Oz movie, Toto unveils Oz as just a regular old man, and not the great and all powerful wizard that legend and rumor had claimed him to be. Someone needs to unveil that curtain towards the real harm to the world today. Among conspiracy theorists, also known as critical thinkers, the end is always a fervent exclamation of "da J e w s!" or "the Rothschild family". To me, in my studying.....that seems like taking the easy way out. There are many, many other cultures on this planet besides the European Jewish families. Has there been a contribution by them to the situational calamity most of the middle class western world feels today? Absolutely the case. Is that the only factor? Not by any means.
I get most of my information from reading. I've watched plenty of videos of the conspiracy variety from youtube, vice, etc. but always go back to actual literature. The conclusions reached are usually much more methodical, less instant. The deeper I have traveled down the numerous rabbit holes I've encountered, I have to have an even greater open mind about everything, because the conspiracy is THAT VAST. The conspiracy of money lending is basic game. Control over free will itself is the unseen end goal. To say that the money changing/lending field is corrupt is a basic assumption that we all can most likely agree upon. So, why does it still exist? There are a few reasons to me as to why: We are used to it. They've studied our responses for so long that they know that we are passive and too busy worrying about just surviving, rather than critically thinking about how money is being robbed. We have no other viable alternative, save for being an outsider and living off the grid. And that presents a slew of other issues, both legal and personal. It would be a hard sell to convince your entire family to go with you to live off the grid. So, you remain in the system. The money makes the system go round, to a point. If money didn't exist anymore, the system would still be in place. That's weird, right? People have had that structure for so long, that they NEED it, no matter how many rights are taken away. Picture a slave, who, upon being granted his/her emancipation, chose to stay and work on the plantation for his former master, but just become an employee of that former master. Or a slave in ancient Rome, choosing to stay by their dominus's side even after being freed. That's the real power of habit, conducted on a hive mind scale for all of society. Remember this little tidbit of information: the main slave trading port in New York City was located at Wall Street & the East River. They don't call them stocks and bonds for nothing. Money, religion, science, energy, war, psychology, propaganda, history. The weird thing is that there are dogmatic principles in place that are viewed as concrete facts. Nothing is fact. Like the Egyptian priest said to Solon.... 'O Solon, Solon, you Hellenes are but children, and there is never an old man who is an Hellene.' Solon, hearing this, said, 'What do you mean?' 'I mean to say,' he replied, 'that in mind you are all young; there is no old opinion handed down among you by ancient tradition, nor any science which is hoary with age. And I will tell you the reason of this: there have been, and there will be again, many destructions of mankind arising out of many causes.' Take that one excerpt from Plato's Critias, and meditate on that fact in thought. We are but children in the grand scope of this world. We are but a blip in the radar of the scope of the universe. This current reality that we find ourselves in is a SYSTEM. A method of design and control. A system is a set of interacting and interdependent component parts forming a complex/intricate whole. Advances within that system have been made, but on a specified level. Say, you study DNA. That is all you do. You are the cog in that wheel. Your entire adult life's work centers around DNA. You're a specialized component within the system. And by many, you'd be considered a success. "My son/daughter, the scientist." Yet your DNA studies of excellence can be used in a Dr. Moreau-type fashion to mutate genes and entire species. Some for the greater good, others for a seemingly more sinister purpose. But as a scientist, you need access to equipment, and most times you won't personally have the funds to obtain the equipment needed for testing new developments. Who has those funds? Perhaps a research center does, perhaps a government agency does. Perhaps a public or private corporation does. Perhaps a multi billionaire with a curiosity for science does. Or perhaps they all do, and are connected at a degree much higher up on the power chain. What is the end goal there? Could be more money, more power, more control or the meeting of an objective/directive from the power above them. Or below them. Everything is connected. Religion is connected to science, psychology, propaganda, war, money and history. The exact same can be said about every other one of those choices, using the same groupings. Realize that, and then you can delve into the roots: the esoteric influences, the secrets hid den in plain si ght. Like a tall tree, the leaves above ground are allowed to grow because of the real work done below ground by the roots, the unseen power. So, the next time you hear someone blame a specific group of people, remember how vast the entirety of reality really is. Then, act in thought accordingly. Stay positive. The United States of America. Land of the free. Home of the brave. Don't tread on me. Do you think that that is still the case? I don't.
There is so much uncertainty for all citizens, legal or illegal. Basically, HUMAN BEINGS. I don't honestly know where to start, without coming off as absolutely crazy. Would you even believe me? Let's begin with U.S. politics. The prime focus this year is on the 2016 Presidential Race. And to me, that is one of the biggest shams there are. Trump, Bush, Cruz, Rubio, Sanders and Clinton. Why do people pay attention to these liars? They are shortsighted liars only out for themselves (and their immediate families, at best). They are backed by bnks and crprtns. Controlled by special interest groups representing those same bnks and crprtns. The very fact that I have to abbreviate those words should tell you something. I fear their wrath, probably slightly less than those same politicians running for the presidency. Do you think a career politician is going to make a difference in this country, when they got to where they are by sucking a crprte teet? Or are blackmailed, have their families threatened, etc. Things are so dark in some realms of high society that just hearing about it might scar some people. But it doesn't make it any less true. Whoever gets "elected" president will have to toe whatever line they are shown by their handlers and owners. You know, the real owners of the country, the ones that George Carlin spoke of in his last stand-up performance before he passed away. Keep that point off to the side for now. Let's focus on the issues: immigration, the economy, unemployment, healthcare, national security/terrorism and privacy/rights. Also, let's assume that there are four (4) branches of government: Executive Branch, Legislative Branch, Judicial Branch and the Media. Just for s#!ts and giggles. You are fed the choices of the country's real powers to puppeteer the masses as president through only 2-3 candidates. And all are hedged bets by bnks and crprtns already. Let's see the candidates: Trump - utter character allowed to say the things citizens feel and want to hear in order to satiate their hunger for action. The thing here is that the satiation of that hunger is enough. The population has been controlled for so long that there is no actual fight left.....that's why people attach themselves to a candidate. To quote Nicky Santoro from the movie Casino, "If you had any balls, you'd be out there stealing for a living." Well, that is what these people do. Every single one of them. Cruz - his wife was a former Gldmn Schs director. Bush - Mena. Connection to Yale Skll & Bnes through brother and dad. Comes from a family whose ancestors were documented slve trdrs (look it up, Thomas Walker). The misconception is that the Bush family is a political dynasty. They aren't. Thir history lies in bnkng, on the Walker side, and through Prescott Bush. Rubio - I have no real info on. Sanders - seems to be the people's champion of the Democratic Party. He seems way too old to have a legitimate chance. Clinton - The crprte choice. Rammed down our throats. Is corruption personified, in my view. Bilderberg, Nixon Watergate scandal, emails, Benghazi...the beat goes on and on. Is the epitome of power hungry, to me. How is there a need to keep immigration a major issue in this country? Have the people of this country forgotten how their ancestors came to this country? This is an absolute joke of an issue to me. With all of the other potential powderkeg pillars that informed voters could and should be focusing on/learning about, this issue somehow tugs at the emotions of the public. Everyone is an immigrant to this land at some point. History didn't start when European countries started exploring and colonizing the continent. Even Native Americans are immigrants (most likely of Basque/Iberian/Libyan/Phoenician/Egyptian/North African/African descent). There are plenty of books that speak of this concept. Read up. I am not worried about immigrants taking jobs because crprtns already took away those jobs and sent them overseas eastward or to South America for gigantic tax breaks. Once again, teet-fed politicians at work for the American people. And I'm not upset about their actions. It's a rigged system, and I get it. I am affected by the lack of this realization by other people. Don't fall for it. You're smarter than that. The economy and employment/unemployment are so convoluted that it is extremely hard for even me to make sense out of it....and I like learning about economics. I will say that the unemployment data and all job numbers are manipulated, and economic policy is adopted off of those cooked books. Then, the blow is softened by nonsensical verbiage by.....you guessed it.....the politicians. Most of the real economic policy is sandwiched into long, dry bills and resolutions, like the TPP or the healthcare act that contains Obamacare. I am not a lawyer and never want to become one, but I do look at some of the documentation on the financial side of things to figure out what is being taken from citizens. Example: The Dodd-Frank Act has bnk bail-in and bnk resolution specifications detailed in the event of another economic and market downturn. This is stated as not burdening the taxpayer with the duty of bailing out institutions. But it glosses over the fact that savings depositors will be viewed as creditors, and in the event of bankruptcy proceedings on a bnk, will be last in line to get their money. So, the riggd markets influence the economy, crooked unemployment numbers/jobs reports influences it, so does inflation, interest rates, real estate, gas prices.....lots of things. What about balance of trade? Imports, exports, strength of a nation's currency? That's where the geopolitics comes into play for real. Do many voters know about that? I hope they will come to know about it because it is very important. Once you know about geopolitics, you begin to be more difficult to control through fear and terror. There's a hidden hand that can be identified......and I'd "invest" you that Donald Trump, Jeb Bush, Ron/Rand Paul, Bernie Sanders and Hillary Clinton are all warts on the thumb of that hidden hand. Healthcare costs keep increasing. I don't know what to do about it. It's as shady a business as can be. And I've heard it said that health insurance companies, and insurance companies in general, rake in more money than bnks ever could. That's just what I've heard, and it is to be used as food for thought. Look into the history of MetLife, Blue Cross/Blue Shield, Travelers insurance companies. Dig deep enough and you'll see the etchings of the real surface power of the country. National Security / Terrorism / Privacy / Rights can be grouped together. More conflict will continue. Less privacy will be available. Rights will be put further to the test. Yes, we are in the beginnings of a police state. That's a reality. It's worse for some than it is for others. Ghun cntrl is a major issue, due to conveniently orchestrated mass events. I question everything. Especially when I can easily buy a hat chet in Wal-Mart with cash for $9 ($19 if I want a hat chet that is sponsored by Bear Grylls!) with no problem whatsoever. With that control comes the elimination of privacy. I don't feel more secure. I have a small idea of the capabilities that crprtns/govrnmnts/think tanks can do with peoples' data, and it does not feel freeing at all to me. Think Guy Montag in Fahrenheit 451. Remember when Gene Hackman's character in Enemy of the State proved how he knew what's up to the feds when he didn't raise his head up to take notice of the helicopter overhead? That's what it feels like sometimes these days. The only real way that I see someone living through this and keeping their sanity as a free-minded thinker is to keep learning and reading. Read books, for the most part, when you can. You're curiosity will grow, and you'll get better at determining what seems true to you and what is propaganda. Sir Francis Bacon wrote a relatively short work titled The New Atlantis in 1627. America is the supposed "New Atlantis." What happened to the original Atlantis of pre-history according to Plato? Into the ocean it went. Is this New Atlantis on the decline? All signs are indicating so. Looking at the entire scope of history, the nations problems and permissions (yes, from overseas) seem to have lived out their usefulness to the grander plan. As United States hegemony decreases, and a repositioning of the stakes in this world come to pass, you must keep your eyes on the bigger picture, or else you'll lose whatever inkling of freedom you have left. I might be all over the place at first, but the con-job is so thick and twisted that you gotta weave through everything to see a clear picture. Remember. Two Parties: No Choice. Vote RepubliCrat. I am not sure what to write about in this entry. So, I will get a randomly generated word from the internet and wax poetic from there. You be the judge if I made the content up or not (I'll divulge whether it is true or fiction at the end of the entry).
Random Word: Hypothenal Definition: Of or pertaining to the prominent part of the palm of the hand above the base of the little finger or a corresponding part in the forefoot of an animal as the hypothenar eminence. So, in layman's terms, hypothenal means the side of your palm below your pinky finger. As a child in school, being a lefty, my hypothenal side (use?) would get dirty from writing both in pencil and in pen. The fad in the early 90's was the concept of the erasable pen, and man, did that do a number on my left hypothenal side! Being in that hand-preference minority, us 'sinistre' were of very limited number in school. You knew who each other were, and you felt on common ground with people who write just as sloppy as you do, bat the same way you do, share the left-handed pair of scissors due to limited annual supplies and knowing the pains of being the "unorthodox ones." Being lefty always felt great to me, and I am glad it is my dominant hand. Playing sports as a lefty was a surprisingly good thing while growing up, and served me well in the ring too. As for my hypothenal sides of my hands, I can say that they provide much needed padding and cushioning, as I have always been very active in life and needed the support. No broken bones are desired at all on any level, so the hypothenal muscles have definitely done their jobs. I challenge them when I go to the gym, when my grip begins to slip. With their help, I don't embarrass myself! And if I ever have a stroke in life, I'll be better off than a righty would(that has been instilled since my Psych 101 class!) because a stroke impacts the left side of your brain, which controls the right side. So, thank goodness for Southpaw benefits! In Mixed Martial Arts, fighters use that portion of their hand in order to roundhouse punch a guy on the face. It is a risky move, but is a true crowd pleaser. Luckily, I don't wish to please anyone. Only get in and then out, Scot free! What has my right hand done for me? Well, it's still here. Let's see what the minutes, hours, months and years bring! I am hoping that it enables me to type more entries, on a grander scale. Day 3 was a pretty good day for progress. I kept to the plan and did well.
In the morning, I went boxing with my good friends, and did very well. I miss boxing on a regular basis. I feel shitty telling people that I haven't fought in a while. I know why I don't though, so that's all that matters really. So, I boxed, did a few ab exercises, and then had lunch. I then went and got a haircut. My stylist is really nice, and we try new stuff with my hair a lot. She likes doing that, as it let's her "play" a bit, creatively. I don't mind, as I must learn to welcome change into my life. So, I have to an extent. I shopped around for some t-shirts to style in my "own creative way." I didn't buy anything though. When I got home, I styled two shirts that I had previously purchased for it. They look pretty good. All are a work in progress, as I need to evolve the style by learning how to sew, so I can make the shirts/sweaters look more professional-for-purchase. The main thing I aimed to do is keep mentally active with it all, so that I am not just sitting around vegging out on youtube. In the evening, I went to an amateur boxing show in Poughkeepsie. The fights were of very good quality. I enjoyed them. Watching boxing always brings back the itch to compete. I am certain I will scratch that itch at some point over the course of the next year. Just not right this second. I have other things that I must focus my attention on. It was good to see my cornerman there as well. He truly is a student of the game. After the boxing event, I went out with my friend to a waterfront bar. There were a good amount of people out, so it was a good energy to be around. Today brings pushups, a workout of some sort (gym or running), then a softball game at 2pm. After that, I will buy some more shirts to style. I also have to go through clothes and organize my stuff. Get my house in order, so to speak. I am going to read, then do some online work. I always want to be doing something, from here on out. Woke up when my alarm rang, turned it off, then went right back to sleep for a little while longer. I didn't have a long commute today, so it was ok in terms of time. In terms of rising up, making each second of each day count, I didn't do that.
I did manage to do 126 pushups before I left my apartment for work. 6 sets of 21. That's usually what I do each day. These past few weeks I haven't been at it as routinely as I had been in the past. But today is the start of my rise, so the pushups were done, and I feel good physically. I got a few views on this site yesterday, and a few more already today. To those reading, I hope you are getting decent insight out of these writings. I am going to be writing on this site on a regular daily basis, to instill it as a habit. It seems that whenever I find myself slacking or not doing something in a set moment, I think of that Latvian Russian girl I was seeing a month and a half ago. I picture her being on her grind, always moving. So, I then get my ass into gear and pick things up. At the very least, it gets me to do things. I read a couple of pages out of a book I am reading this morning, so always making progress in that realm. Let's see what the rest of the day has in store. I don't really have much going on at the moment. And, that is in many senses. Physically, mentally, emotionally, intellectually and metaphysically I am stagnant. I've been sputtering around in circles for a good 7 months it seems. At the beginning of the year, I was really open mentally, but come July 2014, I am not sure of what I am doing. I have achieved a few goals I had this year (such as creating this site), yet I feel that a person of my ability should be doing more for himself. A ton more.
I want to run through my 2014 goals, one by one, then analyze why I have either accomplished them or not accomplished them: 1) Run a marathon per month for the entirety of 2014. -This hasn't happened because marathons have gotten very expensive (~$100 minimum just to run the race itself, not factoring in overnight accomodations/travel expenses/airline tickets). At my current level of pay, I've been priced out, and that angers me. 2) Return to boxing - have 2 fights this year. - I've been lazier these past 3 years, after 30, than I have in my entire life in terms of athletics. I go to a Planet Fitness a few times a week (3) and box each Saturday, but obviously that doesn't put me into fighting shape. It is still possible to fight twice this year, but I have an uphill battle, given my current work situation and commute. Again, I don't know how to proceed with this. To go to Gleason's in Brooklyn after commuting from central NJ for work is not good. 3) Continue reading from my reading list. I want to read 15 books this year.- I am reading at a very good pace. There is so much corruption in the world today, and so many complexities, that I have not gotten a handle on current issues/ways to make money in this world stage to jump myself into a higher level of confidence. I have been learning more about ancient history/knowledge, after some counsel that has influenced me to believe that that will be more to my benefit at this time. That being said, I still read a lot. 4) Get a new apartment so that my dating life can be allowed to grow. 5) Build a business. - I set up this site. Yet I did not incorporate a business name by my 33rd birthday. Is there still time? Yes. However, my goal of making double what I currently make now seems frustratingly out of reach. I must keep progressing on this one. It is my way to make something of my adult life. 6) Bond with 1 woman deeply. - Hasn't happened. I did have dinner with a girl on Valentine's Day, but that ended badly in March. Since that time, I have been dating around. And not many of those dates have turned into anything material. I am still out there looking, though. This goal takes 2 to achieve, and the effort has been there on my part. 7) Join Toastmasters and make 2 speeches this calendar year. - My work situation has made this impossible to achieve. Most Toastmasters meetings are at 6:15, 6:30 the latest in Manhattan, and I do not get into Manhattan until 7pm. Need a new job to start making Toastmasters meetings. 8) Take an Improv Level 2 class to return to performing. - Have not done this yet. Improv courses cost ~$325-$375. Money is tight for me now. Seems my money has been steadily declining for the past 5 years in terms of how much I can save, as expenses have gone up and I started going out and paying for meals/drinks/clothes in the city. Not certain if I am going to take a course until I save more money. 9) Become fluent in Italian. - This is not the case. I'd need to study more. I am not around the tongue nearly as much as I was at the beginning of the year. 10) Create a stand-up comedy routine by May and do 1 open mic event. -I have written some jokes, and have some jokes rolling around in my head. Not enough for a routine yet, but a start. 11) Build a fire from scratch. - I tried to build one in January, then the winter thwarted doing it outside because it was very bad weather all winter. Before the end of the year I need to succeed in at least attempting more to achieve this. 12) Devote $100 each paycheck towards my savings account to adopt the way of The Richest Man In Babylon. - Nope. Hasn't happened. I have been wasting my money, for the most part. It is all under the reason/excuse that I need to live life. Which equated to needing to 'drink' life, unfortunately. Hunting for women at bars........bad idea all around! 13) Invest in mining stocks/minerals. - I haven't done this yet. No excuse but fear. 14) Build my resume' to find a new role. - I did do this. My resume' is out there. In fact, I have 2 out there. No bites just yet. 15) Be courteous and giving. That is, be the man that attracts people to him by giving. - I think I am closing off this year more than most. I am not certain why I am not depressed, yet give off an angry at the world/downer vibe. I feel it. I'm simply not happy with the way I am living, and in how my miserable situation is perpetuated with not a lot of breaks happening for me. At this juncture, I am unsure of myself, and my direction. I was told by a wise man earlier this year that I am CEO of Martin Murphy Incorporated. Right now, Martin Murphy Incorporated has yet to start up in full. Fledgling ideas are yet to be put into motion. The resolution of this is quite simple......or in my head, it seems very simple: I wake up at 4 or 5am when my alarm clock rings in the morning, no snoozing, then get ready for work. Run the Brooklyn Bridge. Then commute to work. Work. Commute back to New York City. Go to the gym. Go to the grocery store, if need be. Then I can do any of the following when I get home to my room for a few hours before going to sleep at 11:30-midnight or so: - read - build/work on my website - search for jobs - put plans together to build a mobile app - put together a style-line of shirts instead of relying on trends (be the trend setter and work on distribution line and business-sense in the process) I work on things that offer no monetary reward. That changes now. |
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